5/28/12 …

i found myself stuck in the middle of my pass and my future… and having the option of letting my pass become my future or staying with someone that has become apart of my everyday life… it makes me sad .. i dnt desserve neither one of them.. and it wouldnt be fair to compare.. they both are amazing.. one says i love u and just want the old nicole back.. but em i really able to go back to my old ways and forget who i am today? and the other one says i love you just the way you are different and all.. i just dont have the slightest clue of what i should do..and yesterday i didnt know how to feel but i was happy i was spending it with u .. you gave up the whole day just to spend with me before u leave..you have changed alot in different ways but your love for me has always remained the same. ill miss you so much..but i hope you know im in good hands of someone thats adores me loves me makes me their main priority and that is so food to me if only u can see him in action and understand why im with him.. but yet your always in my head.. i hope your safe over there..

my brain says no but my heart says yes, i’ll be waiting for the day my brain catches up..